you are not broken, you are rebuilding!

God is saying I need you to hear me,

Not the world,  not your past,  not your pain.

I know you are tired, not just physically tired in a way that sleep doesn’t fix, tired of being the strong one, tired of holding everything together, tired of smiling in a room while your heart is quietly breaking.

The truth is a lot of people don’t even know the real you, not how much you overthink, not how many times you almost gave up,they don’t know how much it took to get out of bed and pretend that you are okay

God is saying I need you to hear me clearly , I see every tear that you quietly wipe away

I hear every silent prayer that you didn’t have the strength to say out loud, I know the version of you that not everyone knows or meets,

Just know that you are not weak for feeling this way you are human, you are healing, you are carrying things that were never meant to break you but make you stronger, and you are still here and that means something.

So today this is what I need you to do.

Stop trying to have it all figured out.

Stop trying to be the version that everyone else is comfortable with, and just be you.

Be the one that is learning 

Be the one that is growing 

Be the one who is choosing to be themselves, even if it feels unfamiliar,

Because healing doesn’t look like strength all the time

Sometimes healing looks like crying in your car all alone

Sometimes healing is saying no even though you might feel guilty afterwards 

Sometimes healing is walking away from something you really wanted because you finally realized you deserved better 

I need you to understand that you are not hard to love, you were just giving love to the people that didn’t know how to hold on to the love that you had to give

You are not too much, you where just in a space that was too small for the person you are becoming 

And you are not behind you are being prepared 

Everything you have been through 

Every heart ache, every disappointment, every moment you question, 

it is not wasted, it is building a better stronger version of you that will not settle and that will not bend

So do not abandon yourself 

So this is your affirmation 

I am allowed to out grow from once what felt comfortable

I am allowed to choose peace over people 

I am allowed to walk away without explaining myself 

I am allowed to become someone I have never been before

I am not broken, I am rebuilding 

I am not lost, I am learning myself 

Remember you are not Broken  or starting over, you are Rebuilding.

Written By, Sister Laura Johnston